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Private whenever i feel like it :)

Its only one picture of beyonce cos i was standing really far away at the vip area and thus can't get a good shot. She was fabulous as expected. I'll post all other pictures on facebook!

Its term break btw but nooo i dun really feel much of a break. No holidays for me, i'm stuck in singapore, giving tuition, training for dance and doing FA problems. Very exciting life.

- Back from bintan with a headache n lack of sleep
- Attended 2 classes feeling hungry throughout both classes
- Had fav fish soup dinner with fav les Hy.
- Tried to dance but was too tired and achy and moody
- Had a close to 4 hr talk on the phone with J
- Still think slutty manipulative girls should be avoided



Avril plus me at Shanghai KTV.



likey this picture much much

i miss the days there very much i guess. though i didn't have much purpose there, bummed around on my butt and grew fat a lot, i had a lot of time to myself.

ok time for bed i hope i wake up to pick the bf up from the airport

i don't know what to do with my life. I don't mean it in a bad way, but sometimes, when i have too much in life, too much of the good, i can't handle.

i belittle myself, for being so weak. I am not weak, but i am not strong enough yet. I am happy, for all the good things in my life. I just want to know, how to handle it. :)

currently am at the ningbo airport waiting for the international section to open. apparently it only opens at 7.15 and my flight is at 8pm. i've been waiting for half an hour and thank god there's wireless here to prevent me from falling asleep. i am soooooo tired i swear.

haven;t slept all night. we got back from zrocks at about 2 plus, our usual hangout watering hole that we have come to love. but what happened last night, bad memories to end the trip. supper was horrid too, i miss my ba chor mee, teochew mui and prata and i know i can savour them in exactly 17 hrs.

someone tell me what to do for the next 9 hrs in transit in hk airport. :x


my farewell picture

I opened this blank canvas. I have so much on my mind, so much emotions. But i don't have the courage to pen anything down. What's wrong

the stupidest fool is the one who trust. the one who believed the lies, or being compelled to believe.

i've been silly, so siily. i wish i don't feel this way, but i do. i wish i could change things but i can't i wish things aren't falling apart but they are.

I don't think anyone does really check this space anymore, China has mysteriously allowed access to livejournal i have no idea why and i am taking this opportunity of 35 mins more of work to kick start a whole month's worth of china updates!

I swear so much has happened throughout this whole month, Well maybe not ALOT has changed, but nothing is ever constant in my life i guess in a way. Friends come and go, good ones you keep, the rotten ones get them out of your life as soon as possible.




some great wall galore here, we had a long weekend off work due to some dragon boat holiday, so we decided to use that 4 days and took a plane to beijing to explore the forbidden city and the great wall. i had some good shopping too.



other than that, life is not bad here. It feels like i've been here forever, yet when i look back and think back, eh only 1 mth and 9 days has passed. I will be back in singapore in exactly 1 mth and 1 day. I haven't danced in so long, my bones are aching and brittle, i'm having severe breakouts which i just spent 400 plus rmb at sephora yesterday to heal.  I need some miracle water for my skin, which i will splurge on at DFS when i come back. Till then, i'll still be slugging it out here :(

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need change. again.  :(

While waiting for hwee to finish her work, i came across this article.

http://www.asiaone.com/Health/News/Story/A1Story20090324-130747.html

read it. I never knew i was at risk of cancer cause of drinking. Not good for the past few weeks of zouk consecutively.

fuck everything already seriously.

too many things happening, too little time. can't breathe

Its been a pretty turbulent month. Its only march now, but somehow i feel like a whole year has gone passed again. I'm exaggerating again i know and being the drama queen. Well the drama has consumed my life the past few years. Each time, my frens will comment that my life is too dramatic, like a page off a chick flick movie or storybook i would say. So much so, i'm afraid i thrive on thrill now, when things go by too perfectly or have a notion of simplicity, i'll get skeptical.

Recess week gone by like a flash too, mainly spent on either zouk or timbre.


I know i should start beautifying my pictures, edit photoshop them and make them into a nice collage instead of just dumping my pictures here. But, i have absolutely NO TIME NOW.

I have a burgeoning amout of work to complete, Projects, assignments and studying to do for the coming papers. I'm tired of slipshod work each time, just rushing. living by a thin thread. Not to mention latin traning have increased to 4 times a week now and i have some upcoming performances. Quitting my job has proved to be the right decision. Though i don't have so much spare cash to throw away like i used to, but life is much more fufilling now. Honestly, i used to have about 2k a month last year, and i have NO idea where all those money went to.

So, in the coming month, i don't think i'll have much time to breathe. Like honestly.

 When i was younger, i used to think my life was perfect. I was doing well in my studies, i had beautiful dreams, a nice loving family, i did well in whatever i put myself out to do. Sure i was suspectible to the little problems here and there but things were so pure, simple and yes PERFECT. 

Now i ask myself, what had gone wrong. 

you know you are in deep shit when you are so afraid of losing someone.

is it so much to ask? or have i turned into a demanding bitch? like i forked out 120 for some people to come to bailamos next thurs for my performance, for these people i call my closest friends, but are they acting like they are?

i can no longer keep myself away from you.

then don't.